I've been meaning to write again for a while, but usually end up reading a book, watching Netflix or Hulu, or sleeping. Right now I've been watching Switched At Birth on Netflix (which your father is totally mortified by and would be so embarrassed if he knew I was confessing to this).
I can't believe we only have 6 weeks left before your big debut. Some days I want it to come sooner than that, but then other days I have anxiety about not being ready. I did convince your daddy, after a moment of meltdown, that we needed a crib and car-seat. So on April 5 we left work early and went up to Ikea and Buy Buy Baby to get the essentials. I was able to put your crib and dresser together while listening to conference on Saturday and I felt so much more prepared.
But now I'm starting to get anxious about all the other things we'll be needing. So maybe I'll come home with a box of diapers and wipes next time I go to Costco.
My boasting of not being sick at all while being pregnant finally caught up with me. Two days ago my throat was scratchy and I knew it was the first sign of a cold. Now I'm completely miserable and really can't sleep. My nose just runs, my eyes are all watery, and I can't breathe. Luckily I've been able to leave work early the last two days and I called my doctor today and he said I would be fine taking Sudafed. I also picked up a humidifier, so I'm hopeful tonight will be a better night than the last two.
Well my little girl, you are still moving like crazy and kicking me in my ribs, which has convinced daddy that you'll be a little soccer player like him. It's fun watching you move around in there and I am just in awe at the miracle of all this. A part of me is completely terrified of being your mom, but then another part of me is completely ecstatic. I cannot wait to meet you. We are going to be the best buddies. And your dad is going to spoil you rotten.
Your first vacation is already planned to Bear Lake at the end of June. I'm excited to relax and hang out with you at the lake. And you are going to have the attention of everyone. You are going to have 4 aunts that will love and spoil you up there. And every other day when I am at work.
I'm also working on a book about you and your family. Your grandma started a journal for me when I was just a baby and it is so precious to me now. I hope this book will be the same for you. I'm writing about your family history and thinking of Grandpa Emmett today. It's his birthday and we all miss him so much. I'm sad you won't get to meet him down here, but who knows...maybe you've already met him :) He is the best grandpa anyone could have and boy did he love his grandchildren. You are going to be a part of a remarkable group of families and that comforts me; even with the scary things happening in the world, both your mom and dad have fabulous families that will always protect you, guide you, and love you.
Keep growing healthy and strong. And I will try and get lots of rest so I will feel better soon.
Love, your momma