Friday, September 2, 2011

You are ugly

Today was just one of those days that you wish you could erase from your memory. I try to only write about positive or silly things on my blog, but I need to write today. And one of my goals is to write more of my words for others to read and who knows, perhaps my future children will appreciate this one day.

Today made me wonder why most jobs don't uplift us and make us want to be better people. I work part-time doing human resources and I hate the feeling of being a mess-up. With jobs, it's like we try so hard to impress and do things perfectly, but the only things that are noticed are when things aren't done perfectly.

However, there is an exception to every rule. It is amazing what expressing gratitude for a person can do to boost motivation and self-confidence.

Today made me think a lot about my jobs and why I make the decisions I make. Why I decided to stop nannying for a family and why I took a job only for the pay.

Why do I babysit overnight so often for parents to leave on vacation while I'm home with their children and away from Colonel Brandon.

Why little children can hurt me so much by telling me they don't like me because I'm ugly.

It is amazing to think about what affects different people and situations have on us. It is amazing to see how different our reactions can be, for better or for worse.

So while I have felt like a mess up nanny because I cut kids fingernails too short or I let a poor little boy get scratched by a big dog, I have to keep going.

Because it's the good days that make this life (and jobs) all worth it.

And I am hoping tomorrow is one of those days.


Natalie Lundberg said...

sorry for the bad day. All I can say is being a mom is way better then being a nanny, but you still have days when you feel like a big 'ol screw up

Tamera said...

Sorry Em. I'm in the exact same boat as you. Love you. And desperately miss you.

Aubree said...

I sure hope neither of my boys have ever called you ugly! They would be in big trouble! We love you so much!!