Monday, December 5, 2011

I am one of those people

I remember seeing my sister wear skinny jeans for the first time. I had been away from all things worldly in the far away land of Maine, where everyone gets their clothes at L.L.Bean. In the time I was away wearing frumpy mid-calf skirts and layers and layers of shirts and sweaters to stay warm in the bitter New England cold the fashion had definitely changed. It felt like I left when short shirts that barely hit the belt loops of your pants were the "in" thing and long Sevens jeans that flared out at the bottom were what everyone wished they had.

And now I come home to this? What are these? I thought tapered pants were long gone, unless you were a middle-aged guy. But these are not just tapered pants, these are tight. Like how did you get this on tight. Yet I found myself 6 months later buying my first pair of "skinny jeans" from the Gap no less. Seriously? Oh it gets worse, just wait.

Soon skinny jeans were no longer tight enough on the legs. They didn't squash the thigh fat in tight enough, so they decided to make "jeggings." Genius. Leggings from the 80's mixed with stretchy jean material. Last year Black Friday came around and I bought two pair from Old Navy. $15.00 each. I was pretty thrilled to think I could buy jeans for $15.00 instead of $50.00. The only problem is that the tightness of the somewhat thick jean material pinches my skin behind the knee if I try to sit indian style for too long. The great thing is I can wear them with any shoe imaginable.

It used to be that I would have jeans that I could wear with flat shoes, but not heals. Because they would be too short. And then I had jeans that I could only wear with heals because they would drag with flats and I was no longer in junior high when it was cool to lose the bottom two inches of your pants on the back hem from the constant wear on the pavement.

Now skinny jeans, jeggings, leggings. You can wear them with boots, flats, heels, sandals, etc, etc. So I caved.

I own two pairs of leggings that I do in fact wear in public. But let me make it clear that 1. I only own thick black leggings, none of the shear light colored stuff that are basically tights. and 2. Outside my house I only where them with a shirt long enough to cover the behind. I have to keep some modesty here.

So there is my confession. I am sorry Amanda for judging you and your skinny jeans. Because now I am someone that other people probably judge when they see me sporting my leggings.

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

There will come a day...

when I am not in school. I have to keep telling myself that. I absolutely love the months of November-February. The weather is marvelous; I get to wear my scarves; Colonel Brandon and I celebrate both of our birthdays, Christmas, Thanksgiving, New Years Eve, Valentines Day, and our anniversary. It is a glorious time of year that is squashed and extinguished by homework, papers, and exams.

I agonize over my to do list, but in the back of my mind I'm just wanting to put up my Christmas tree, wrap presents and tie beautiful bows on them, and spend time with Colonel Brandon looking at lights and snuggling in our freezing house.

But then reality hits and I have to force myself to stay up past my ten o'clock bedtime and pound out the 12 page research papers.

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

sexual harassment

In a meeting last week Todd said we needed to have a sexual harassment training.

He said this whole Penn State has been making him think.

Being the Human Resources Rep. I was asked to head it up.

Instead of choosing to show a lame video they did a couple years ago, I decided I'd just talk about it.

I did a little research...and put together a document (copied one from the payroll service we use). Don't worry I gave credit where credit was due and I had permission.

I've held three meetings thus far and have one more to go before all 100 employees know what they need to know (should already know).

I am beginning to think this part-time job is leaning towards a full-time job. I like the responsibility, but not when I am always worried about school. Let's just hope the employees are all good boys and girls and don't give me grief when it comes to harassment paperwork.

Sunday, November 13, 2011

My special day: 11/11/11

I was born on November 11, 1986 to goodly parents. I was the first baby and I was two weeks late. For some reason I wouldn't come out (my mom blames it on my big head). I am glad I was born in November though. I love this time of year when I can wear boots and scarves. I love the anticipation of the upcoming holidays and spending time with family.

Many years my mom would always get a picture of me with the flag that was placed in our front yard to remind us all of the sacrifices of many to protect our land and our rights. I don't think I have been as grateful as I should be to share my special day with the many Veterans that serve our country.

This year was a little different. While both of my grandpa's served in the military, it was long before I was ever around so to me they were always just grandpa. Then I married Brandon and became a part of a new family. I now have a father-in-law who served in the Vietnam war and a brother-in-law who will be returning to Afghanistan in a few days. So this year as I walked across campus to my class and I saw a few hundred men dressed in their military uniforms I felt an overwhelming sense of pride to share my birthday with such great people. So happy (belated) Veterans Day to all those that have served, currently serve, or will serve in the military. Thank you for your courage and sacrifice.

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Acorn hats

(photo c/o Sue Pierce)

The other day as I walked to my 8 0'clock Spanish class, I began seeing acorns on the ground and then i saw their missing hats. I began awkwardly smiling to myself -- the kind of smile that if people saw they would think I was a little nutty.

Suddenly I was back in New England walking down the long, house-less roads of Maine. My companions and I always looked forward to the fall days of stepping on acorn hats. See, the endless walking can get a little boring and sometimes talking is not enough, so we would resort to seeking out the tops of acorns that had popped off and turned upside down. When you would put your weight on them they would crack and break beneath your feet. Finding a bunch of 2 or 3 stuck together was always a highlight worth sharing with each other. It was a little pleasure really -- one that others would not fully enjoy. It was one of nostalgic moments and it made my morning walk to class a little more enjoyable.

Saturday, October 29, 2011

Life is what you make it

When I was little I wanted to be a cowboy, so I would watch a movie called Silverado. I loved that movie, still do actually. There is a quote in that movie that has stuck with me and becomes more and more powerful. It is definitely true for law school.

"Some people think because they're stronger or meaner, they can push you 'round, I've seen a lot of that. But, it's only true, if you let it be. Life is what you make it." - Stella

There are other quotes that comes to my mind, that I wish people would apply more.

"Keep away from people who belittle your ambitions. Small people do that, but the really great make you feel that you, too, can be great." - Mark Twain.

"By swallowing evil words unsaid, no one has ever harmed his stomach." - Winston Churchill.

"It is not our abilities that show what we truly are; it is our choices." -Dumbledore.

But, I will try to remember that, "Each golden sunrise ushers in new opportunities for those who retain faith in themselves and keep their chins up." - Alonzo Newton Benn.

"What you are becoming is more important than what you are accomplishing." - H. Jackman Brown. Jr.

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

I'm Married...ha ha ha ha

As I was walking to class early in the morning I passed by two girls that were probably in the same ward back in the day and catching up on old times. The conversation went as follows:

Chica 1: Hey I was just thinking of you the other day when I was moving into [some apartment complex I didn't catch the name of] and I was remembering when I helped you move in there. Where are you living now anyway?

Chica 2: Well, (holds her left hand up super stiff in front of the girls face) I'M MARRIED!!!

(hysterical laughter by Chica 2)

As I walked past them hearing the sound of her unending laughter I was thoroughly confused. Is that a normal reaction when announcing you are married? Usually I smile...but chuckle? or laugh uncontrollably? I then thought why is she laughing? Did she just never picture herself getting married? Or does she live an alternate lifestyle so it's super funny she's married?

Weird stuff goes on walking around campus heading to my classes.

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Forget yourself

The other day I was having what I thought was a horrible day. I was feeling sorry for myself and I was more than a little angry. I didn't feel like going to sleep, even though it was late, so I got up and went to my computer and logged on. The thought came to me to get on facebook. When I got on I found my brother-in-law on, but my sister was not. You see, I started doing facebook for one reason, my brother-in-law John was sent to Afghanistan and it's the easiest way to communicate for him. I asked him if Christine fell asleep again and he responded that he didn't know. I then asked him how he was doing and he said he was "having a hard time." When he said this, I almost told him, "Yeah, me too," or something to that effect. But, I was prompted to just forget my problems and talk to my brother.
It turns out that a close friend of his, a second father to him, had been killed that day, and he didn't have anyone to talk to because it was the only day my sister has missed talking to him because she was sick and sleeping. He actually couldn't tell me at that point, so I could only say general words of encouragement. But, I hope it helped him in some way. I really hope it did.
All I could think of was what if I had said I had a hard day too. There he is, away from his wife for a year in a dangerous place where people get killed.
I'm glad that I forgot my problems. And I'm grateful they are the only problems I have. I could hear President Hinckley's father's words echo, "Forget yourself and go to work." This is one of the most striking example in my life of forgetting oneself. I'm glad for once in my life, I finally listened.

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

I can't say no

I have a problem. I physically cannot say "no" to people when they ask me to do something. Let me rephrase that. I cannot say "no" to anyone outside my family. That is just sad. I can say no to Brandon or my sister. But when my mission president calls to ask if I'll do the food for our upcoming mission reunion...I say yes!! Of course!! I'd love to!

After hanging up, I remember I told myself last year that I wouldn't go to one of these again. Seeing missionaries that asked me on a date when I got home...seeing other missionaries I didn't particularly like...and the whole "look what I'm doing with my life, fake smile, and perky attitude." I guess I'm just too pessimistic. At least I can just hide out in the kitchen with Colonel Brandon.

So the mission reunion is in 3 days and I am starting to freak out. Mostly because whenever I mention it to someone they freak out. So then I get nervous. I've never cooked for more than 6 people. What was I thinking.

And of course I want it to be perfect so that just makes it worse. Water is not good enough to drink so I have to do a pretty (and delicious) mint lemonade. I have to cut the rolls a certain way to make them look better. I can't give assignments to people to bring side dishes because they have to go with the main dish.

What on earth have I gotten myself into.

The Menu
Barbecued Pork Sandwiches
Pasta Salad
Grape Salad
Mint Lemonade

Monday, September 12, 2011

Exciting Chillsac deal

If you are in the market for a chill sac (similar to lovesac) the family I nanny for owns the company Chillsac and there is an awesome sale going on this week. The chillsacs are 50% off to celebrate the beginning of football season :) Plus I have a coupon code for additional savings. For the 5 ft. Chillsac use ac$25disc to receive $25 off your order and for the 6 ft. Chillsace use ac$disc to receive $50 off your order. The codes are good through the end of Sept.
And best of shipping!
They are super comfy and there are tons of fun colors :) Enjoy!

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

The Nanny Bag

I wish I had a bag like Mary Poppins.

Since I am not magical like her, I decided to do something more realistic.

Remember when you were 13 in Achievement Days and you made babysitting kits? I remember I made one out of a wicked cool cowboy boot box from my dad. My mom helped me put that sticky paper stuff that people used back in the 90s all over the outside to make it pretty. It was a Mauve color. I then filled it with books, crayons, and paper and took it with me to my babysitting jobs.

Well who says a 24 year old is too old for that.

Introducing, my nanny bag. I raided my scrapbook room and found some paint, foam stamps and paper. I also included childrens' books I'd won from bunco (who'd have thunk?). I put in some playdough and cookie cutters and there is still plenty of room for lots of fun stuff. I also have fun ideas for the upcoming holidays which I am super excited about!

With the help of Maccy friend, we made this pretty board to hang up all the fun projects we will do twice a week.

Friday, September 2, 2011

You are ugly

Today was just one of those days that you wish you could erase from your memory. I try to only write about positive or silly things on my blog, but I need to write today. And one of my goals is to write more of my words for others to read and who knows, perhaps my future children will appreciate this one day.

Today made me wonder why most jobs don't uplift us and make us want to be better people. I work part-time doing human resources and I hate the feeling of being a mess-up. With jobs, it's like we try so hard to impress and do things perfectly, but the only things that are noticed are when things aren't done perfectly.

However, there is an exception to every rule. It is amazing what expressing gratitude for a person can do to boost motivation and self-confidence.

Today made me think a lot about my jobs and why I make the decisions I make. Why I decided to stop nannying for a family and why I took a job only for the pay.

Why do I babysit overnight so often for parents to leave on vacation while I'm home with their children and away from Colonel Brandon.

Why little children can hurt me so much by telling me they don't like me because I'm ugly.

It is amazing to think about what affects different people and situations have on us. It is amazing to see how different our reactions can be, for better or for worse.

So while I have felt like a mess up nanny because I cut kids fingernails too short or I let a poor little boy get scratched by a big dog, I have to keep going.

Because it's the good days that make this life (and jobs) all worth it.

And I am hoping tomorrow is one of those days.

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

first day of school

It feels like there will never be a time in my life that I won't have a first day of school. I'm going on 5+ years and still have a year and a half to go. It will take me a total of 6 years to get my undergrad. That is desperately depressing, when Colonel Brandon will have taken a total of 6 1/2 years to receive a bachelor's degree and doctorate degree. What can I say, I married a hard-working, brilliant man.

So today was my second first day of school. Monday I went to two classes, and today I went to 2 different classes. In my teaching writing class we were challenged to write. Being in the English Teaching program, I felt like I needed to do a little repenting. Even though my grandma did say I did like to write on my blog instead of posting pictures (really I'm just lazy to take pictures, upload them from the camera to the computer, and then to the blog), I have been a slacker when it comes to blogging. So here I am, sitting in bed with the book that I should be reading next to me. But who really wants to read multiple versions of some myth. Okay I guess it's time I get moving. Happy first week of school! I hope I can survive.

Friday, August 19, 2011

Rue La La

Never heard of Rue La La? Go here. If you enjoy online shopping you will fall in love with this.

Monday, July 25, 2011


For the brief moments I spend online these days I am usually on one of these three sights.

1. Krazy Coupon Lady

2. Hip 2 Save

3. Savvy Shopper Deals

I even went dumpster diving (aka newspaper diving at elementary schools)

And got the Sunday paper.

Friday, July 8, 2011

National Dance Day

I cannot wait for this day. I wanted to do something last year, but never ended up doing anything. This year that is not going to happen. I am learning Napitabs hip hop routine...

And I need a lot of practice. But I am excited for the challenge.

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

The next four days...

I get to enjoy this

and these munchkins

Sunday, June 26, 2011

The Happiest Place On Earth


Oh how I love you. I miss you already. We had a fabulous time eating the world's best corn dogs, running from ride to ride, getting pictures with the characters, and documenting it all with photos. :) My sisters posted many more on facebook, but here's a few.

I can't speak for Colonel Brandon, but I think he enjoyed himself. I hope his first time at Disneyland was a hit and I'm excited for many more trips to come.

Tower of Terror
Indiana Jones (Carly looks terrified!)

Amanda's secret crush (you should have seen her blushing when we saw Peter Pan walking towards us)

Sunday, June 12, 2011

I'm a Mormon

Here it is :) Go read about me and why I'm a Mormon here

Thursday, June 9, 2011

I don't sew

For this little one I made some onsies.

I got the ideas from my friend Dani and some boutiques. It was very fun attempting to be creative.

I also made similar ones for two other little babies. I hope all three baby girls like them (or at least their moms :)

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

I finally did it

I've been meaning to change my url since my last name is no longer Lundberg, but I was being lazy and didn't want to lose all my fellows on my blog list. It will probably take me a while to get everyone back on my list, but I love my new name.

BE (Brandon and Emily) + BASTIAN = BEBASTIAN

I thought it was clever.

I am also working on my profile for this. I think it's great.

I really want to put my heart in it, since that is where my heart belongs (and to Colonel Brandon of course)

Monday, June 6, 2011


1. being without Colonel Brandon while he travels back and form to California :(
2. planting my first garden (and crossing my fingers the plants survive)
3. making strawberry jam
4. working and welcoming the newest baby Ruby to the world
5. going to Hogle Zoo for the first time in a long long time
6. watching way too much tv (very excited about the second season of MasterChef starting tonight)
7. looking forward to being in California next week with Colonel Brandon and going to Disneyland! The happiest place on earth.
9. attending lots of weddings
10. not taking enough pictures

Thursday, May 5, 2011


I have a bald spot. I've had it since I was 3...I think. I cracked my head somewhere from falling into a window well (yes little children...your parents tell you not to play by the window well for a reason). But I didn't have negligent parents, just a negligent sandbox that was located right next to the window well.

The scar from the stitches is somewhere on my head. I believe it is located right below the annoying cowlick I have on the top of my head, near the back. Basically the part of the head that everyone can see. Maybe if I was taller a smaller population could see it, but I am not so fortunate. I have to ask Colonel Brandon every morning if my bald spot is showing. I use my little mirror to locate the back of my head and grab the chunk of hair surrounding this bald spot and attempt to straighten it in a way that the spot will be hidden.

One friend has referred to me as baldy before, but I don't like to claim that nickname. Not that embum is any better in the slightest. I've been listening to Tina Fey's book Bossypants and it's hilarious. See, I think I am like Tina Fey because I have a scar on my head. But in all actuality I am not. Tina's scar is way cooler. Basically if you have a scar you are cool, unless it creates a bald spot.

Are you saying I should embrace baldy?

There was a girl in Jr. High that would part her hair so far on the side of her head that everyone was convinces she was bald on the top of her head. She couldn't embrace her bald spot (if that's what she was trying to hide...or maybe she was just trying to start a new trend) and neither can I. The only people that can embrace bald spots is nobody. Only big white males and little black females can look attractive being totally bald. But a a bald spot? not cool. Although, just because I am saying this someone is going to prove me wrong.

Until then, I will not embrace baldy. But then again I won't do anything drastic to get rid of it because it's a part of me. Or at least I think so anyway. Some days I do wish I had a cool scar though, not a baldy.

Monday, April 18, 2011

lazy Monday

I am burnt out. There comes a time in the semester when I just stop caring and I've surpassed that point. I took two finals today...two English literature finals that made my hand cramp and my pinky numb.

But I am done. I am being lazy the rest of the day. I am not going grocery shopping or doing dishes. I am sitting on the couch and I'll probably watch some basketball with Colonel Brandon and I convinced him to get pizza for dinner. He also had a final today, but for some reason he's so perky.

I blame my laziness on the rain.

Monday, April 4, 2011

Marriage is wonderful

I just watched this again.

I feel so blessed to be able to watch prophets and apostles speak to us.

They are truly witnesses of the Savior Jesus Christ.

Saturday, April 2, 2011

It took me three years...

to grow out my hair. When I left on my mission in Jan. 2008 this is what it looked like...
then it grew and grew...slowly but surely. I suffered through the awkward length stages where one side was longer than the other...but I wanted to see how long I could get it.

I was always jealous of my sisters' beautiful long red hair and I wanted to be like them and donate it to Locks of Love.
So I just let it grow and decided to donate it when I got sick of it...well that happened on Friday.

And then this happened.

So long hair.

Thursday, March 10, 2011

We moved!!

To a beautiful twin home with storage, space, soft carpet, tall shower heads so Colonel Brandon can stand up straight, no upstairs neighbors, and a garage :)

I am one happy and lucky girl.

I'll post pictures soon.

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Colonel Brandon is 26!!

Today we celebrated our one year anniversary by sleeping in and missing Sacrament Meeting (oops) and staying home all day instead of going to the parents for dinner. I made my first Sunday dinner ever...I know, poor poor Brandon. But living 5 minutes away from both of our parents makes a difference. I made steak, potatoes, asparagus, and salad. And a Strawberry/lime Marguerite (a Christmas gift from Dev and Kaylee).

But what I meant to do yesterday was tell the Colonel 26 reasons why I love him. We had fun celebrating his birthday with new red shoes :) pizza, Cathie's famous jelly roll cake, Ticket to Ride, the movie Up, and reminiscing over the last year by looking at his homemade gift--you guessed it, a scrapbook. And a trip to the grocery store of course.

now for the list--in no particular order

1. You listen to me vent about idiot drivers
2. You snuggle with me on the couch.
3. You always get excited to talk to me about cars even though you have to repeat a lot because I have a horrible memory.
4. You know more about pop-culture than I do.
5. You don't give me a hard time for never cooking.
6. You come to work with me and throw away dirty diapers.
7. You wait for me outside of the nursery room on Sundays.
8. You read to me, even when I fall asleep
9. You play games with me.
10. You tell your friends all the great things about me :)
11. You laugh when I tickle you.
12. You tuck me in when you stay up later than me.
13. You text me randomly during the day about all the annoying people in law school.
14. You take pictures with me even though you hate having your picture taken.
15. You read my blog ;)
16. You let me decorate for all the holidays
17. You make me food.
18. You get me medicine and the rice bag when my hip hurts.
19. You give me blessings.
20. You say thank you to me all the time.
21. You go to the temple with me.
22. You are the best color commentator I know.
23. You put your arm around me at church.
24. You get so excited playing Madden (and angry occasionally).
25. You love your family (including me :)
26. You married me.

There you are lovey. Perhaps next year I can think of one more reason why I love you. ;)

And I can't wait to stay in the Egyptian room of the Anniversary Inn with you next week!

Wednesday, February 2, 2011


Since I'm sure you're all dying to know what I did last weekend ;) I'd thought I'd send you on over to 7th and 7th where my friend Nicole blogged about it.

Reuben Sandwich

While this picture doesn't look anything like my Reuben sandwiches I didn't take the time to take a picture of my own and upload onto the computer (I'm just lazy like that).

Reuben's remind me of my grandpa Emmett.
They remind me of eating lunch in the kitchen with my mom.
They make me feel warm and cozy inside when it's absolutely FREEZING outside.
Reuben's are my favorite.
But only at home,
because for some strange reasons restaurants usually put Thousand Island Dressing on them. Why? no se.
And since it's the only way I eat rye bread I get to eat a whole lot with one loaf.

Reuben sandwich:
Dark Rye Bread
Corned Beef
Swiss Cheese
Butter both sides of the bread and grill to perfection :)
*be sure to let the sauerkraut drain really well or the sandwich will be soggy.
*For best results put the pickles and sauerkraut in between the cheese and meat.

And enjoy :) Don't judge till you try it.

Friday, January 14, 2011

oh what a morning

It all begins at 4:00 am when I wake up about ever 30 min. till I finally get out of bed at 7:45.
In the shower I have a little visitor (4 year old Kelty who I'm tending for the week).
The body aches from my nasty cold make me really debate whether I should go to class.
Knowing there will be a quiz I decide to brave the cold (both inside and out).
I turn on the car, get out at begin scraping.
Now that that's done I try opening my car door.
Somehow, someway the lock had gotten bumped so my car was running and I couldn't get inside.
I wait.
My sister shows up to watch the kids while I'm in class. I tell her to call Colonel Brandon and ask to borrow her car.
As I drive away with no paper, pen, book, or phone I realize I never explained what Amanda should actually say to The Colonel when she calls him.
I hope he won't be too upset that I just ruined his sleeping in day.
Making it to class just in time after parking illegally and running to class I take my quiz (after borrowing a pen and paper) and ace it (for once).
I thankfully see no ticket on my car and I drive home.
Oh what a morning.

Thursday, January 6, 2011


This is what I wrote yesterday during my class...

My head is beating and I need to sleep. Wednesdays are not going to be fun--at all. I need food. It's 6:30 and I still have 20 minutes of class. Lame. I can't think. My professor collects spit in his mouth till it gets thick and white. It collects on his teeth, tongue, and the crevices of his lips. Gross. I just want to be home--with my food, diet coke, Colonel Brandon, and TV. I need to read Shakespeare and study Spanish. But I really don't want to. I can't believe it's only the second day of classes. I'm glad this class is only once a week. Wednesdays are now my least favorite day.

The end.

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

It's a new year

As I was catching up on reading others blogs I realized I needed to jump on the bandwagon of the 2010 reflection. Some highlights:

planning a wedding with Colonel Brandon in law school and me in...regular school?
getting married to my sweety in Logan
moving to Springville
buying decorations for the house throughout the year
tearing down wallpaper at my parents
relaxing on our honeymoon at Daniels Summit
finishing my first year in the English teaching program
Colonel Brandon finishing the first half of law school (it's all downhill from here right!)
taking several trips to Logan, some happy and some sad
saying farewell to Grandpa Emmett, we sure do miss you
meeting Grandma Ina
Dinners with family and friends
camping times two
fishing in Alaska
spending the night at several other homes watching kiddies while the parents vacation
getting away to St. George with Colonel Brandon
visiting the hospital way too often to see my dad
Thanksgiving with the Bastians
our first Christmas together at home
doing p90x (for one day)
buying a playstation
helping friends and family move
playing lots of new games

This is definitely a short list and Colonel Brandon could add a lot more, but here's just a few highlights. We had a fabulous Christmas and you can see some pictures
here from the Emmett Christmas party and the ski days following. The break was too short, but it's now time to be off to Spanish. Yikes!